Wishing and Hoping

Wishing I could change what I said and did.
Wishing people would understand and forgive.
Wishing I could just stop the pain.
Wishing winter would just be a season.

Hoping things will improve.
Hoping the pain will ease.
Hoping people would understand.
Hoping that spring would last.

Wishing all the best for friends.
Wishing for peace for others.
Wishing I was stronger.
Wishing I was whole.

Hoping to become less emotional.
Hoping to forgive and be forgiven.
Hoping against hope for the impossible.
Hoping to be healthy.

All the wishing and hoping is for nothing.
All the wishing and hoping leads nowhere.
For few ever hear, few ever really understand.
I've been forgotten, rejected and discarded.

Leaves me feeling like trash.
Maybe I am to someone,
But not to everyone.
At least I hope.

Praying for them.
Praying for peace.
Praying for a brighter tomorrow.
Praying is all I can do now!