When I Am In Doubt

When I am in doubt,

I must try to believe the best.

I need to have faith

It may be a test.

When in doubt

I should remember to shut my mouth.

I should breathe deeply

And pause my thoughts.

I am prone to paranoia.

I am too demanding.

I expect too much.

But, I am kind.

I do care.

I will develop patience.

I must learn how to behave.

I must struggle to be better.

I must fight the doubt, daily.

That is just my life.

For I am an idiot when it comes to other people,

Those outside my family.

I had absolutely no social skills,

Other than pretending to be what others wanted.

I am learning and I will grow.

I am regretful for the harm I cause,

While struggling to learn.