Afraid And Confused

Afraid of being ridiculed behind my back,

And yet, not really because it happens.

Afraid of losing touch with people I care about,

Guess it happen too and it hurts.

Afraid of not knowing,

What others want, what they don't want or if they care.

Afraid of upsetting those I care about.

So afraid, sometimes it is hard to breathe or think.

Confused about how to act around people,

Some people are so hard to understand.

Confused about what is true and what is not.

I've been lied to way too much in life.

Confused about whether to attempt to keep contact,

what is too much contact and what is acceptable?

Confused about my thoughts,

Why are some people so important to me, when I barely know them?

Confused about my feelings,

Why do I care so much?

Afraid and confused,

sometimes it's all I know.

Afraid and confused,

Afraid of rejection and confused about why I am afraid.

Afraid and confused,

Because I always screw up!